Internal Acceptance Movement

Thank you for your kind words. I’m so glad I was able to help in some small way. As for tumblr, I don’t think you should fixate on the number of followers you have. The number doesn’t matter. Even if you have two or five or ten followers, but you are able to inspire and help them. Even if you are impacting ONE person, that is all that matters. What matters even more is when you post positive/pro-recovery material, because it reaffirms all the good things that deep down, you know to be true, but that your eating disorder often makes us forget. It shouldn’t be just about helping others, it needs to be about helping yourself too. I know that when I have a hard time, blogging for the internal acceptance movement helps get me on track with recovery. Getting followers takes time, but it shouldn’t be your motivation. Take care of yourself too!

I wish you so much luck and all the good the world has to offer.

Sincerely,

Daniell

Thank YOU so much :) Feedback like this helps me in my own recovery. That means a lot to me. I’m glad I was able to help in some way. I hope that you can use the I. A.M. (Internal Acceptance Movement) blog during times of low self-esteem and struggle. Sending you love and light!

Sincerely,

Daniell 

Hey Lexi!

I have been doing a lot better. I recently discharged from residential treatment in Oregon. Now I am back in LA and in a day treatment program. The transition has been difficult, and I have taken steps backward, but the last couple days have been taken in a direction of recovery. 

I’ve learned that there is a difference between “wanting to recover” and being “willing to recover”. I think all those struggling want to recover, but they are usually looking for a quick fix solution. Recovery takes years, and there is no magic pill that cures people from their addictions. 

To be willing to recover, is to be willing to do whatever it takes to get better. That involves letting go of the desire for control, and giving it instead to one’s treatment team. It means taking a leap of faith and falling into the darkness of the unknown, but reminding yourself that in the end, everything will turn out ok. It’s emotionally painful and physically excruciating, but in order to truly recover, it is necessary. 

I feel that after being in and out of treatment for the past three years, that I have finally hit that point of “i’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.” I’m ready to live a full, healthy life. And i’m ready to do whatever it takes.

:)

This message means the world to me. I have been here for two days and it is much harder than I imagined. I spent all of the past two days crying and hypervenilating. I haven’t been upset about the food, but more so because the girls aren’t as warm and welcoming as I would have imagined or liked. Of course, it is partially my eating disorder which is making me mind read and personalize people’s actions. But it is still really hard not being able to see my family, who love me unconditionally and support me. Treatment is definitely hard and scary, but so worth it. Life is worth it. 

I would love to keep in touch and get to know you better. There is no judgement here, i promise. Only love, light, and support. I’m so glad that what i write is some kind of help.

You deserve all the beauty and goodness that the world has to offer. Don’t ever forget it.

Sincerely,

Daniell Koepke :)