I feel depressed and angry all of the time. I can't seem to make it stop no matter how hard I try; it always comes back. I don't know what to do.
I’m so sorry to hear that you’re feeling so awful :[
Depression is so insidious and debilitating and hard to fight, but finding freedom from it, or at least relief, is possible.
I answered an ask about coping skills to manage depression several weeks back that I think could be helpful for you:
http://internal-acceptance-movement.tumblr.com/post/24889917981
I’ve been depressed a lot lately too. Something I try to constantly remind myself of is that the feeling will pass. I know that in the moment it feels like the depression will last forever, but the truth is that it always, always passes. A lot of coping is just riding out that wave and doing a lot of self-care until it fades.
In regards to your anger, I think it would be helpful to make a list of situations, comments, or people that trigger your anger. Once you can identify the triggers, you can figure out ways to avoid certain situations or better prepare yourself for them so that in the moment you don’t have an outburst.
The thing about anger is that it’s often a result of people stuffing down multiple frustrations. Eventually, they can’t take it anymore and they burst.
So, I think a lot of defusing anger is not waiting until your breaking point. It’s about letting people know in the moment when they upset you and using coping mechanisms at the onset of your frustration.
If your depression continues and gets worse or you still feel unable to manage your anger, I definitely think you should consider seeing a therapist and/or psychiatrist.
The truth is that we can’t always fight our demons on our own. Sometimes, and quite often, we need outside help. Needing help doesn’t make you weak or incapable or a failure—it makes you human and if anything, it’s a sign of strength and courage. Everyone needs outside support sometimes—you are no exception to that.
So know that if you do need help, it’s okay to ask for it.
Know that you aren’t alone in your battle with depression and anger and that you don’t have to face them alone.
Just because things are difficult now doesn’t mean they will be like this forever. If you take the necessary steps, things can and will get better.
Sending you so much love and strength,
Daniell
